Below are the 7 most recent journal entries recorded in webb97's LiveJournal:

Friday, April 29th, 2005
10:15 am	grab your motives you're coming with me grab your senses you'll need them to see grab your notions and grab your potions we're headed down to the ocean we're gonna cross a new divide we're gonna go crazy while the seagulls fly green lights flicker as plankton die the moon sits heavy in this northern sky out in the distance a blue whale sighs she's got a big fat belly and stoney eyes her goal is enlightenement and through the water she glides these ancient creatures they still exist they've got more wizdom and heart than any scientist they groove to sounds that the whole world would dig tripppppp (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, April 15th, 2005
8:26 am	The Constant Battle "It was an evening I shared with the sun To find out where we belong From the earliest days We were dancing in the shadows More wine Cuz I got to have it More skin Cuz I got to eat it" -LIVE, Lakini's Juice I long for this feeling of depth and this feeling of power and strength. I'd like to give into all of my urges just once and come out feeling pure and peaceful. There's something ancient in me welling up. It must be one of my caveman ancestors trying to wake me up... "Do you think this is what we thought life would be like for you? Do you think that this is what we wanted? You have no soul and you have no honor. You need to make some changes and get back to dancing in the shadows." Well fuck you Mr. Caveman. This society I'm living in isn't exaclty the most condusive environment for my soul to flourish in. I try to keep my senses about me. I try to get in touch with my instincts, but it isn't easy and you have no idea of this world now. We constantly have to play these stupid fucking ego games. All of our instincts are now geared towards social interactions. I see hunters and the hunted all day long. These people have found no other way to deal with their primal urges than to form petty alliances and wage a never ending war of gossip, bitching and pseudo friendships. Our idea of god has been dumbed down and replaced with People Magazine and US Weekly, these are our new Bibles and Toras. These are the people I live and work amongst. They are my friends and they are my family. It's becoming a sad way of life indeed. But don't you think for a minute that I'm not trying hard to stay out of all this. I get sucked in from time to time but I know I'm no where near as deep as the rest of em. So fuck you for giving me such a hard time. I'm trying harder than it seems, bitch ass caveman. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, April 4th, 2005
1:58 pm	When I was a kid... When I was a kid I could watch a movie or a cartoon and I could lose myself in the world that was presented to me. When I was a kid I could spend hours playing and not give a fuck what was going on around me. When I was a kid the games I played often became life and death situations. When I was a kid I went exploring and what I found were new and scary worlds. When I was a kid I had many proffesions. When I was a kid I jumped my bike. When I was a kid I laughed a laugh that if I saw it now, I'd cry. When I was a kid I was in the Junk Club. When I was a kid I was married. When I was a kid I owned a house. When I was a kid I jumped my skateboard. When I was a kid I thought I was a man. When I was a kid I questioned myself daily. When I was a kid hopefully I died. I guess I'm not really a kid anymore. It makes me sad to think about how much I've lost by growing up. I think it's healthy for everyone to try and stay as immature as possible for as long as you can. I think the main thing that attracted me to psychedelics was the feeling they can give you of being a child again. It's funny how as a child you're taught that all drugs are evil and the people who do them are horrible people, but after years and years of your imagination being shot down, psychedelics are one of the only ways to get back that child like mindset. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 7th, 2005
10:07 am	I like weekends Had a good weekend. Spent Saturday in Hillcrest, we shopped and ate some french food. That night we had friends over to play board games. Sunday we went to an art show in Orange County, there was an exibit there called The Beautiful Losers. It's a group of artists that is centered around skateboarding. There was some really cool art there and it was all inspiring. I also got to skate the mini ramp that was set up inside the musuem. I love skateboarding. (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, March 4th, 2005
9:37 am	Caffeinated dream team splits at the seems Coffee a vice I've tried more than twice Bring it to a lab, feed it to mice Watch them squirm watch them burn C a l o r i e s ADDICTION These mice become MEN They're at it AGAIN The wheels in the cage TURNING With rage BURNING With age SLEEPING By day B u t B y N i g h t A new kind of light comes into site The line becomes crossed from wrong Into right (9 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, February 28th, 2005
8:21 am	"Never again" My buddy turned 21 on monday and we had a "kegger" at our house on saturday for him. We didn't really need a keg, but he insisted. He's been looking forward to turning 21 his entire life, or at least that's what he says. He thinks turning 21 is going to change everything for him. It's going to make him a "man", give him perspective and direction. hahaha yeah. He's a good guy though, a sloppy ass drunk (he likes to grunt and bark like a dog and call people gay), but a good guy. We wanted the party to stay under 20 people, we've only been in our house for about 3 months and we really didn't want a bunch of random high school dick heads there treating our house like a hotel room. But, when the word "keg" is added to the equation, jocks, and cool guys from mile around will soon be in tow, bringing their tough guy mentality and their under age girlfriends with them. I hate these people. They made high school even more of a bitch for me than it already was. So, they were at my house. Putting their cigarettes out on my lawn. Pissing in my bathroom and missing the toilet by miles. Tracking all sorts of nasty shit onto our hardwood floors. We had a makeshift poker game going and we got up to check something out, when we came back, the money was gone. One of the dudes pulled his dick out and wiggled it in the direction of my buddies girlfriend. She was pretty upset. Two of my good friends got into a fight and I had to tackle one of them to break it up. The guy I had the party for was pissed at me. He was telling two people at my house to fight (the guy with dick and the girls boyfriend) and I wouldn't stand for it. I got in his face and told him that it was my house and no one would be fighting (except for my two buddies earlier, yeah...). For some reason he got mad at me, picked up the keg and left. About 20 minutes later he came back with the keg. He realized that it was in my name and he couldn't return it. hahaha, what an ass. I went snowboarding the next day. My wife was left to clean up. I felt really bad about that, but she wasn't too upset. I did however, hear her say the words "never again" a bunch of times. It's nights like these that help me remember why I gave up that lifestyle for something more complete and real. (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, February 25th, 2005
9:28 am	I have one of these... I feel kind of like an alcoholic switching from beer to the hard stuff. A live journal eh? Hmmm, must not tell anyone in 3-d land about this. Must not let them know about this side of me. The best part of all this is I'm getting paid to have one. That's how I'll justify it, yeah! I'm not really a cyber nerd, because I'm doing all of this on my work time. That's it right there. I feel much better. I love the fact that I can knowingly lie to myself and it's okay, I'll believe it anyway. This could be fun. Current Mood: Pasty (1 Comment |Comment on this)